This move has been very hard, beside driving over 600 miles with all you own and care in your car, on your own, moving your mind to the south has not been easy either.
Stopping in Maryland on our way here, I realized the reality of the move, and I broke in tears, perhaps I try to hold my feelings in, but the though of leaving behind all I ever known hit deeply in my heart.
Getting settled was relaxing and kept my mind occupied, but going out was very extressful, anxiety kicked in in overdrive, and the fear or being around people was overwhelmingly frustrating. Yeah this change hasn't been any easy, things are easier now, as long as I don't go to strange places on my own.
You might say "Seek a doctor, lady" .... well I did, but, today, my fears are from a different source (maybe when I feel a bit more chatty I'll write about them)
So as you see, moving this far away was not easy. And perhaps I might eventually write more about it. But for now just know that I'm trying... Hard, very hard to get used to it; but my level of comfort has not reach the point where I can smile and say, I'm truly enjoying the south.
Stopping in Maryland on our way here, I realized the reality of the move, and I broke in tears, perhaps I try to hold my feelings in, but the though of leaving behind all I ever known hit deeply in my heart.
Getting settled was relaxing and kept my mind occupied, but going out was very extressful, anxiety kicked in in overdrive, and the fear or being around people was overwhelmingly frustrating. Yeah this change hasn't been any easy, things are easier now, as long as I don't go to strange places on my own.
You might say "Seek a doctor, lady" .... well I did, but, today, my fears are from a different source (maybe when I feel a bit more chatty I'll write about them)
So as you see, moving this far away was not easy. And perhaps I might eventually write more about it. But for now just know that I'm trying... Hard, very hard to get used to it; but my level of comfort has not reach the point where I can smile and say, I'm truly enjoying the south.
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